The walls

The walls

Life, here in the surroundings of my white walls,

the walls that watch me while I pray, while I sing,

while I dance and work in my little room, while

I cry. These white walls they know my life, only

they cry with me, or sing or pray or dance, they give

my life the warm feelings of hands. 

The colors of my works the fabrics, the pen 

that move my hands, the architect of my bones, 

the father, the "I AM", they all live in me. 

Life, life is my big question! , life is the

I AM, and the I AM is life. 

I gather here in my room all of my works, 

the good, the bad and the worse,

they come alive with my help. 

Life in these white walls, pink I rather say;  

“I love pink!” 

My sink full of dishes waiting to 

be washed, the flowers on my table growing roots, 

the doors and windows always on guard, 

the lamps that never cease to give me light,

the sofa so exhausted of my exhausting body, 

the tree near my window poking at me, 

then the cry of a puppy I hear it all the time. 

My shop my objects they dream

and have their own mind, they wear the colors 

of life, they dress up and move my soul,

I love how they love me back.

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The waving

New 

The waving

I’m here , you are there,  

a vessel  waving in our veins,

the hours  that count my significant 

life, the constant image of  thee, 

you! you are the title of my book,

of my memento, how I seek 

thee in the little things I see

your  face  there in the body 

of a grasshopper, a  butterfly, 

a nectar flower,  any where 

I look I see the endless of your  

profound eyes, in the landscape 

of my deserted life.

Where do you go and where do I look,

it is not that I worship thee 

but  that I need to live. 

I’m dressed with the vision 

of the bride to be in vain,

who  told me I was his , 

I can lie all I want,

I can pretend all I want, 

"why are you so vivid"?

I know is all  an illusion, 

theres nothing real there.

You are gone and I am here 

trying to dismiss the fact

of your cruelness, the smell 

of your last day in my true,

in my illusion, the fantasy 

I created to replace the

pain that follows my aching body.

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Betrayed

Betrayed

Betrayed is a canceled line with
an attachment of true lies- believing
it yourself, becomes your real truth.

Reality is awake- betrayed is not
a nightmare, but a prison
in your own flesh.

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My companion

My companion;

I don't know where I’ll be,
when who ever buys my book to read.
I was just writing the date on my new
notebook, and these thoughts came to my mind.

Sometimes when I'm going over some
writing I see the date on the paper,
and it brings me memories of
how I felt at the time when I
wrote those poems ,

Those notes, they have the flavor
of me. My intimate thoughts my most
saddest and happiest moments of
my existence.

My poems my notes my
stories and my hands, they are one,
one memory in all together.
The way my hands clinch my
writing my every move of prose.

I don't know who
Will want to read the writing coming
from a stranger a none-known poet.
From lonesome I, no one
knows who she is.

I cherish every letter,
word and phrase my hands have written.
Because all of this has been to me a wonderful
companion of my lonesome life of appetence to feed.


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Ode to you

Ode to you;




It is not how you look, 
But how I see you, 
With chaste heart and pure eyes, 
I solemnize you, 


My beloved, 
I restraining my fervent blood, 
To be recognize not, 
I quietly awake, 


But you bed yourself in my lines, 
As in placid lakes, 
Or wave-foam


Earth music
Seas fragrance
In you, 


Nakedly clear, 
And beautiful to me, 
Whether it is your strong hands, 


On my breast, 
At a primal touch, 
Or your ultra thick lips, 


Like a musical instrument, 
The essentials of your skin, 
Color and redolence.


The deep landscape 
And meekness of your eyes.


You steal my breathe in a verse, 
And I keep writing to you my love.

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Dormant

Dormant;

Love is dormant when you 
Don't remember it, 

I do not want to think of it,
It makes me weep,
It gives me grief,

When I am settle and comfortable,
When I don't
Caress it,
It does not wake,

It does not keep me up at nights
When I don't see the beauty in
People that are in love,
In the birds that sing hymns of
Happines when they join
In their nest to make love.

If I see this tenderness,
If I gaze at them,
All it brings to me is lament, sadness,
For I do not want to think of love.

I want to be free,
Free of what doesn't even
Imprison me,
I do not want to hold love,

Love is like a golden nail
Thrust in my heart,
Love doesn't hold me,
It has no name, no future,
No bones or face,

Love has not just abandon me,
It laugh’s at me,
It hides from me,

I do not know where to find it,
It has no route to take me,
Not even a destiny to hold on to,
Love, love.

I don't know what to do anymore,
For love is not near me,
Love is a thing
That I rather not touch,

Because when I touch it- it burns
Like fire, it kills my hopes my peace ,
I cannot, and I do not want to think of love,

Love is not a feeling,
Is more like an ability,
That I refuse to activate,
And let it sink me away like a
Suffering slave.


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Poetic ache

Poetic ache;


As liquid evaporating,
my reflection vanishes
dust of bone drifted, 


And the quiddity of my 
soul collapses while it waits, 
hoping for a return, 


Like ships in the open sea, 
lingering for 
a placid voyage, 


I continue 
in the same wave, 
like branches I waggle 
vigorously in my aches, 


Trying to elude the reason, 
escaping from my own breath, 
and as I see the leaves of trees 
falling, 


Each of them feel my pain, 
and I travel in my head to all 
of these places without 
taking a step, 


I dream with my eyes wide open, 
gazing at a fantasy frame, 
for my life becomes poetic
by the endlessness of my constant aches.


Copyright©ElenaToledo2011